一道英语阅读题（高中水平）

先说题目好了,09年北京卷A篇

57.UponleavingforAmericatheauthorfelt_______.

A.confusedB.excited

C.worriedD.amazed

IbegantogrowupthatwinternightwhenmyparentsandIwerereturningfrommyaunt'shouse,andmymothersaidthatwemightsoonbeleavingforAmerica.Wewereonthebusthen.Iwascrying,andsomepeopleonthebuswereturningaroundtolookatme.IrememberthatIcouldnotbearthethoughtofneverhearingagaintheradioprogramforschoolchildrentowhichIlistenedeverymorning.

Idonotremembermyselfcryingforthisreasonagain.Infact,IthinkIcriedverylittlewhenIwassayinggoodbyetomyfriendsandrelatives.WhenwewereleavingIthoughtaboutalltheplacesIwasgoingtosee-—thestrangeandmagicalplacesIhadknownonlyfrombooksandpictures.ThecountryIwasleavingnevertocomebackwashardlyinmyheadthen.

首先我有一点不明白,第一段说他不能忍受离开家,在车上都哭了,但是第二段又说他想象目的地（这里是指将要去的美国吗?我不太理解）的美好景色,并且丝毫不在乎将要离开家乡（ThecountryIwasleavingnevertocomebackwashardlyinmyheadthen是这个意思吗?）,不太理解作者到底什么心情.这道题答案是excited,怎么看出来的?

如果可以,把这两段的意思给我讲一下,另外“ThecountryIwasleavingnevertocomebackwashardlyinmyheadthen”这句话什么意思?

那第一段哭是怎么回事？那是哪个时间点？